Are you as guilty as I am when it comes to putting God in a box? I have done this many times and the most recent was today. Recently I have been struggling with the idea of leaving my job and coming home to work building my business while homeschooling my son. After feeling the push a couple times and getting another push from my boss to make a decision, I finally did the unthinkable, I gave a notice!!!! That’s right. I gave my notice at work 3 days ago. Now, I am not leaving in two weeks as you may think, but I gave over a 90 day notice with the option to leave sooner, as long as I fulfill a 30 day notice.
Even though I have almost 3 1/2 months to figure things out, I have seriously been a wreck ever since that day. It’s not a super small salary, it’s an average household salary that will go poof! in just a few short months. I have been nervous and stressed out. I have worried if I made the right decision. It’s terrifying. But….God says walk by faith and not by sight, right? Easier said than done.
My husband, who is normally the more panicky one, especially when it comes to money, is extremely, almost eerily calm. He has been so supportive through this and keeps assuring me that it was the right decision.
Well today as I was talking to my daughter, who is home from college for the summer, I said something completely out of a poverty mindset. I told her that this fall when she starts back to school things may be tight at home because I’m leaving my job, so she needed to be very careful how she spent her money. I told her we may not be about to send her money or buy extras because finances may be tighter than usual. Now, don’t get me wrong. I do not mean that we would ever splurge or give her everything anyway, I am just saying those words I spoke spread doubt in my mind. My husband immediately looked at me and reminded me that I cannot think like that.
That was complete poverty mindset taking back over and telling me all of the “what ifs” that might happen if I leave my “security” or step out of my comfort zone. That was like a slap in the face and I have thinking about this all evening. I put God in a box because of my doubt and unbelief. I had to repent.
God is bigger than any obstacle we face. God can do more in a second than we could ever do in a lifetime on our own. Romans 8:11 says “The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.” The very same God. God you are faithful. Please give me an extra portion of faith so that I can live in your abundance and trust you to fulfill your promises in my life!
James 1:6 says “But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” I don’t know about you but I have blown and tossed by the wind too many times. Believe and not doubt. Man, that’s tough but God says it, so I am going to work hard at believing and not doubting. Trusting and not stressing. Moving and not freezing. And getting uncomfortable. What do you need to let go of today and let God have? What do you need to do to move forward? Let’s let go and let God. 🙂